i've been bitten by the lazy to blog bug...

High School Musical - When There Was Me And You (Gabriella)

It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care

I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you

I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you

I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind

Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you

i was just watching high school musical on chn 5 and this song was amazingly beautiful.

Wind surfing...

i'm almost done packing my things for wind surfing camp. i didn't want to go initially but bernice dragged me into it saying it will help me with things. the wave, the calming ebb and flow of tides and of course wind surfing. i'm gonna pray for a fun and eventful camp.

i went and accompanied lh yesterday as he was moving house. the movers were suppose to come at around 2pm to 4pm but he sms me in the morning saying he was really sad and lonely and ask me to go down so i went over earlier and we had breakfast and lunch. however the movers didn't arrive till 7pm and boy were we pissed. we literally rot the entire afternoon away, walking around joo chiat again and again. then went back to his house, talk rot talk rot then went out to 7-eleven buy ice cream and newspaper. we went in and out of 7-eleven 3 times, i suspect the auntie there will call the police soon thinking that we are some terrorists or something trying to survey the place. by the time everything was moved to his new place in jurong west, it was already around 10pm. we went over to jurong point for a quick bite before i took a long train ride home.

The thing you fought most hard to prevent has inevitably already happened.
Change is the only thing that is constant.

Bye bye ka...

i went over to ka's place with lh yesterday for a last night of hanging out, just the 3 of us. had a good time talking and playing the whole night through till morning. it has been a pretty long since the last time the 3 of us slept together. we talked till morning and then accompanied him to the airport, had breakfast together before sending him off. I'll be helping lh to move house to boon lay tmr. it's kinda weird but i suddenly felt i just lost 2 of my best friends. one went to western aus and the other to western singapore, actually most of my friends are migrating to the west. its gonna be so much quieter...

对不起我爱你 - 梁静茹

没别的只想说对不起
对不起我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想你怎么说
也不会改变我的决定
你知道有时候感情事很难说
很难说爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要
一想你我的心就发烧
想给你听我的心跳
想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你
搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你

没别的只想说对不起
怎么样我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲
你怎么做
也不会影响我的心情
你知道有时候男孩更难捉摸
难捉摸爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要
一想你我的心就狂跳
我的模样记不记得牢
情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你
听歌想着你
大地和蓝天
出现的全是你
我才不管你的表情
我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你

你听一听我的心跳
你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你
搭车想着你
合眼闭眼间出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情
我等不到你的回应
不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你

Good game...

GG... i sprained my ankle. Aaron needs to rest, remember there is a limit to everything. i just came back from playing badminton and now i have a swollen ankle. pray and hope it faster recovers or else i'm not gonna have much fun in wind surfing camp.

"爱你不是两三天
一眨眼心就能沉淀
你是否想念我喔
还是像我只和寂寞作朋友"

Not bad...

yay! i'm actually quite proud of myself today. =) i set out to run 5km but ended up running 10km instead. for a person who rather swim that 10km instead, i think thats quite an achievement. i really hate rainy weather at times like today. it really dampens the mood and worst of all makes the road really slippery and muddy. after finishing the 10km, my legs and t-shirt was like dotted with mud stains, machiam like just come back from chiong sua like that. the goodie back sucks! i really wanted the nice orange mizuno singlet but they ran out of stock and i got some stupid t-shirt instead and 3 pairs of socks. thats all for the goodie bag, horrible. then during the lucky draw, they did something like calling out people with mizuno shoes, or singlet or like people with number tags with certain numbers, it was all super random. so the dj started calling, i want some one with '123' in their tag. i was getting ready to turn and run back to the stage area if they call '456' which is my tag. "and the next lucky person is '987'! diao!!! shit man! u call '123' and '987' why never call '456'!!! so i walk away with my friends, then suddenly "no 987"? ok how about '456'! everyone started screaming, "AARON!!!! thats you!!!" i immediately turned and ran all the way back only to hear "ah there u are number 987" !%#$^# curses! oh another funny thing happened, while i was looking for my bag at the holding area, this girl came up to me and went, "hey 456! i saw your bag at the front! come come!" i was huh? what? so i followed her and got my bag without the need to dive into the pool of smelly and wet people to look for it. guess its good to get a number tag like '456', your easily remembered.

i felt much more at ease after the run, like i shed some weight that was on me. the morning air was very refreshing for the mind and helped me to think more clearly. i'm glad i ran...

"当故事结束之后 心也喜欢一个人寂寞"

High praise...

Today we had a special event called high praise during service. i guess for me, it came at a very good time. i have been both spiritually and emotionally tested of late and i needed God's guidance. i was running dry and was becoming parch, i needed to be refuel, i was thirsty for his word. Praise and worship today really lifted me up and gave me this even greater longing to hear what He has to say to me. My heart is opened, my mind is renewed, my soul is restored, i was ready.

Today's message was from 2 chronicles 26. in brief it was about the reign of king Uzziah, how he came to power but lost sight of life's true purpose which eventually led to his downfall. one tends to seek God only in times of need and forsake Him in times of prosperity. this is very prevalent in life as we tend to only remember God when we are in need. God is blamed when life is difficult and when life is all good and dandy we merely smirk and think that should be the way. when that happens, we center our lives on earthly accomplishments and many things precedes the place of God in our hearts and minds. i bashfully admit i was guilty of it and today's message reminded me of when i was like that, where i allowed my vice to grip hold of me.

Not too long ago, my life was centered around a virtual world, yes i was shamefully addicted to playing WoW, in short for world of warcraft. i was fully aware of my undoings but i couldn't give up. i did try but most of the time i just dived back in on my own accord, maybe being addicted to WoW is a form of escapism, maybe i just had nothing better to do. but how wrong was i, no matter how much time and effort i spent, i never felt the sense of satisfaction or fulfillment, i found it harder to be at peace, i was constantly angry and i even prayed for the wrong reasons. i needed deliverance desperately and deliverance came. i shall not elaborate as i have talked about it before on my previous entries somewhere in dec 06 and jan 07. i was glad God sent her to help me find my way and brought me back to Him. i was set on the right path but not for long, the problem is, i may be on the right path but i was at the helm, not God. i was running away from some emotions and in my attempt to avoid, i steered my way back to destruction again. However this time i saw it coming, i was stronger than before, i will not allow myself to drift from God again.

i know this time i was not alone, in fact i was never alone, i just never turn to Him. so i prayed, i pray that He will take control, i ask for help, i wanted to give up all vain things that charmed me most but i was afraid and i didn't know how. thats when He put another special some one in my life. Through her i was able to find strength, the strength to finally officially quit playing WoW. through her, i felt God's calling again, i saw purpose and my yearning to do His work was fan into flames. Emotions and feelings that i had suppressed came pouring out but this time i was not gonna run anymore, i am gonna face it. she opened my eyes to things that are more important, things which are so much more wonderful than a virtual world. Most importantly she opened up my heart...